"He will provide", "He's able", "He's faithful"...
I
taught on these, I taught on His nature and characters (though am still learning), I taught on His faithfulness and etc yet I feel this topic is after me, challenging me, re-shaping me, nudging me to test if I'm truly believe what I've spoken/ taught. An inch of my understanding of who He is will not be moved yet to walk through this journey or more specifically this last week in Sabah does challenge me to hang on to His promises. At least SD 2550 ( minus 3 months food budgets, transportation and personal needs) need to be at sight before the 28th this month or before i leave to Singapore. Inside me began to ask 'why not somewhere cheaper?', 'How will this take place?'... I know He'll provide but my mind is boggling with 'when will this take place'? Will i leave Sabah with the needed finances? And if i through this 3 months, how will i through the next 6 months?
So...the verdict? Am I still believing that He's faithful or just the 'fleshly me' began to worry and take on fear? Do I know He CAN? Yes, I 100% sure and know but to be balance on this trust and unseen provision, I must say am a bit wavering.
LORD, I know You will provide. Let me have Your rest and assurance.
I
taught on these, I taught on His nature and characters (though am still learning), I taught on His faithfulness and etc yet I feel this topic is after me, challenging me, re-shaping me, nudging me to test if I'm truly believe what I've spoken/ taught. An inch of my understanding of who He is will not be moved yet to walk through this journey or more specifically this last week in Sabah does challenge me to hang on to His promises. At least SD 2550 ( minus 3 months food budgets, transportation and personal needs) need to be at sight before the 28th this month or before i leave to Singapore. Inside me began to ask 'why not somewhere cheaper?', 'How will this take place?'... I know He'll provide but my mind is boggling with 'when will this take place'? Will i leave Sabah with the needed finances? And if i through this 3 months, how will i through the next 6 months?So...the verdict? Am I still believing that He's faithful or just the 'fleshly me' began to worry and take on fear? Do I know He CAN? Yes, I 100% sure and know but to be balance on this trust and unseen provision, I must say am a bit wavering.
LORD, I know You will provide. Let me have Your rest and assurance.
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