The rain stopped! And that means I can go for a walk today!

Have been longing for walks but with the unpredictable weather, all I can do is hoping that it won’t rain on the afternoon or at least it stops before the dusk. And I have the privileged to enjoy the walk and just being with myself today.
As I walked and sometimes looked up to heaven, I saw the clouds through the leaves and the branches of the trees. My heart leaped and joy started to bubble up in me, felt there’s a longing and a freedom that the depth of me is longing. ‘There got to be more than this’, ‘it has to be more than this’? Is this what my life is achieving for? Running towards things that won’t last for long? It got to be more! It has to be more!
More questions from my heart to the Father started to well up. ‘Why am I here?’, ‘Is this the place where you’re bringing me to re-focusing my heart and calling?’, ‘Is this the place that you’re calling me to trust you more?’ ‘What will be the end of this?’…
SBS, BCC, Indonesia, Sabah…these are all in my heart, so much work yet there’s only one me. ‘LORD, in the midst of all these, in the midst of my uncertainty, in the midst of searching you, I realized that all that I’m seeking for is YOU! The yearning and longing is YOU. I didn’t know that I wanted you this much! This gift; this life is meant for you and you alone! When that day comes, when I walk on the isle to see you, I know you will be there standing firmly with a proud smile and a gaze that’s fixed on me. Father, I long for more of You, let not my heart grow cold towards you and let not my heart be satisfied in knowing You because ‘there are still more- it’s uncountable of how much you have in store for me.’