Just within the span of few days, stories of 'pain, betrayal and unfaithfulness' were in my hearing again. As I listened and watching the lips of friends retelling their journey of pain, I couldn't help but pained with them. And in the moment of following their stories, I kept hearing my heart beating out the words 'Oh Lord, have mercy. Oh Lord, could you please meet this hurt?'

Somehow I could identify this pain although I've not experience thus far. I could now pain along with those who are hurting, praying & hoping His hand will calm the storms of their hearts, and somehow I began to have a little understanding of what MERCY means.

Year 2007; I asked the questions 'How could I help? How could I bring changes? I don't understand this pain, I don't know what to do?' when I felt Him speaking to me about MERCY. Years passed, and I was secretly thankful that He hasn't reminded me this questions. But as I journey through the last 2 years, I began to slowly see the meaning of it. I learned that I'm not made out of steel. My feeling, emotions and pain are real, and I learned that there's no human being could touch the deepest me, no human being could soothe the deepest pain even if I've countless honest talks with others. I realized that in the deepest pain, lost and uncertainties...He is still the best place to run to. I came to understand what Psalm 139 said 'For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb...' 

And where else could I run to if not to the Creator of me? Even if things don't seem fair, where else could I run to? He might not giving me the answers that I want but I know He has the most sturdy, unchangeable and trustworthy character. Well...even if I don't get my answers, I want to still hang on to Him. 

I'm yet to learn this MERCY and as He continues to bring people & friends with such stories, I pray that I'll see Him more. I may not have the best answers to give them but I know He hears them, and all that I-feeling-emotion-made person will fail not to usher them to Father's heart through prayers and encouragement. As for now, I couldn't give much but I know I could hope much. As I continue to walk my life in this world, may I learn to see this MERCY.