TRUST

TRUST: Firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.

This simple word persistently knocking at the door of my heart and thought. I've learned this and knew what it meant, I've offered such word to others and challenged them to embrace this, yet when I myself facing such moments, I find this word is to cliche and hard to be embraced. 

As I cried out to Him one day, asking Him 'Teach me to trust, how can I trust you when things don't happen as it should be?' I sensed His rhetorical question quieten me, 'What is my character?'. Ohh...so often I see things with my logical mind and own understanding! And subconsciously, I've let distrust taken place - distrust over men and God; how I've allowed fear to grow in me which led me to have a partial trust or not allowing Him to take the full control over my life, future and circumstances. This, perhaps is another season of walking such lesson again.

In the process of re-learning this lesson, I'm challenged by the hope and trust of a friend who just lost his wife, Paul perspective of what's worth much, Daniel's unshaken faith even in the midst of persecution and injustice, women and men that had run the race successfully and etc. Seeing their faith, how can I say He isn't worth to be trusted? Seeing their wholehearted devotion towards what's more eternal, how can I say He doesn't understand? Seeing how they endure pain and hardships, how can I say my situation is worst? Seeing how they continually worshiping Him, how can I say He isn't a promise keeper?

' For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a hope and a future.' Jer 29:11 

If this God that I've known and study is a God with a character that's unchangeable, steady, firm, unshaken, how can I who constantly changed, shaken, unsteady not to have trust in Him? And how can I accuse Him for not keeping His promise?