Switchfoot - Always w/ Lyrics

I must say I came out of my teaching week with different and new perspective of who God is as I processed through my week with the DTS students. Yes...it's quite something for me to chew and swallow it! I'm humbled and learn to know that I'm so little both in my knowledge of who He is and my capability to know Him- He's beyond my understanding, beyond my 'best words', beyond my 'best ideas'...beyond any best version that I can name Him. I came out with understanding that He's indeed infinite and I am finite! I am crushed on the inside yet feel hope resurrected from and all around me. Seriously, I'm still couldn't find the 'best word' to describe how I feel and where I'm at- I feel all my knowledge and understanding of who He is were swept away by this newness; I'm thankful, grateful and even feel privileged to have this indescribable God. Really...joy, freedom, hope etc is spilling from the inside. I'm blessed, extremely blessed to have taught in the DTS, to have taught 'bout the indescribable Him.

New lesson learnt:
- All love and relationship is possible for us only because it's already exists within Him, within God himself. love is not limitation. He's love, can't act apart from love.
- He's not merely the best version on me that I can think of. he's far more than that, above and beyond all that i can ask or think. Though i can't grasp Him but He still want to be known.
- By nature He's completely unlimited,without bounds. He's always known fullness, live in a state of perpetual satisfaction as His normal state of existence.- Him being Him.
- 'It's finished'- putting full stop; accomplished, and now I can freely come to Him even run to Him. I'm reconciled to Him.
- My life starts with Him and should end with Him.
- He's GOOD!!!

your love oh lord

Feel like the depth of me wanting to shout out this song. He's indeed GOOD, so good that even my words nor songs can describe it. Am fully thankful for Him!!Though there are needs and wants waiting to be fulfilled, I know He's faithful and I know He'll provide at the right time.

And so...while I'm waiting...I want to thank Him first for He is GOOD!!!

Let Go

This is cool...............

COFFEE

"I will betroth you to Me forever; Yes, I will betroth you to Me in rigtheousness and justice, in lovingkindness and mercy; I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness, And you shall know the Lord." - Hosea 2:19-20

As I was brewing the coffee and as I was smelling the aroma with a great joy knowing that I'll have a cup of nice coffee this morning; a gentle reminder came to mind- origin of the coffee powder came from grounded coffee beans.
Ahh....to be grounded, processed, broken etc...I'm sort of familiar with this process, I know these never come with great pleasure or comfortable moments but I'm sure the end result will be growing moment and beautiful. I remember one of my speaker said 'as you go through the wilderness, it's your choice to come out 'BETTER' or 'BITTER'. I know moments of this great bending often woo us to give up,to go on our own ways, to let go of Him...BUT...how much can you and I strengthen this bending moments or change this process?
I guess when we have decided to have Him in every bits of our live, He; as our beloved will never ever shut His eyes or even thinking 'bout taking His hands off. He's here, there and everywhere...and I'm confidently sure He's walking alongside us through the wilderness.
So... to come out 'BETTER' or 'BITTER' surely is my choice. If I want the aroma to fill the room then 'grounding moments' are needed.

Today- which one do I choose? To stay as coffee beans or to be grounded coffee?
To acknowledge Him as my beloved or to only acknowledge Him as my religion/ belief?

Tak Pernah Sendiri - UX Band

4. KAU BEBASKAN - Glory to Glory - True Worshippers live recording (HD)

'In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.'- 1 Thess 5:18

January 2011-
A year that i never thought will come so soon. Seems like yesteryear disappear in just a glimpse, was my 2010 a waste or...

Like the story of a woman pouring out expensive perfume on Jesus’ feet, many were indignant and some said ‘what a waste?’ But…this woman, in her humility, poured out her love, generosity, hope and most probably knowing that she’s preparing Him for the next level of life. It was a waste in the eyes of men but was it REALLY a waste in HIS EYES?

Looking back my past year, I should say it’s been quite a year; a journey that was colored with struggles, pain, joy, laughter, discipling others and etc. Though I don’t see most of the result now but I know I’ve investing into something that’s much bigger and I believe it’s also preparing me for the next part of my journey. As I looked back, I know the last journey of mine isn’t a waste, I pray as you and I walk through this year of 2011, we will remember that it won’t be a waste because we’re journeying with Him.

Few of the little things that I'm grateful for:

- The FREEDOM to express myself and be the person I'm called to be.

- People that He had drawn into my life, brought inputs, encouragements and supports.

- Friends that i have in many places of the world.

- Trip to Cambodia, seeing His heart in that land and nations around.

- Be part of *Y family.

- Staffing MAC- learn to lead in a new dimension.

- Joy and laughter.

- Answer for the next step- SBS.

- Family; a brand new niece :)

- Provision for the whole year.

-His wisdom, guidance, protection and most importantly knowing the FREEDOM that I've been given by Him (for free).

- I can called Him my God, friend, father and lover.